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Thank you

Wed, 28 Nov 2012 01:27:00 -0500

for making what was suppose to be a good day, a fucking bad one.

cant you be serious just one tie I tell you something rather than turning it into some stupid joke.

How could you talk to me like that? As if I was wrong for everything. & then when I let out my...

Tue, 13 Nov 2012 01:44:07 -0500

How could you talk to me like that? As if I was wrong for everything. & then when I let out my feelings about my past, you gave me such a heartless glare. What happened to the old Derrick that used to just comfort me and tell me that I’m perfect and that he was just too stupid to have me. The Derrick that would console me, not ignore my feelings. You pushed them aside as if they were nothing. And then accused me of cheating? Wth. I don’t care what you read. I didn’t cheat. Nor have I ever even considered. How could you accuse me of something like that. Am I some kind of slut to you? Cause that’s how It seems when you talk about it. Your just too cold now.. I don’t know what happened to the old Derrick. But I miss him. I feel like after tonight, our relationship will never be the same.

am i not allowed to feel hurt?

Tue, 13 Nov 2012 01:37:02 -0500

You don’t understand.. you never will. I don’t know how I can make you either. We’ll always be at odds over this because you don’t get that what happened still gets to me. It doesn’t mean I care for him, cause I don’t. But he impacted my life. What if I left you for someone after 12yrs and told you it was because you weren’t good enough. How would you feel?

I sweaaaaaar, fuck every fucking person in this fucking world

Sun, 04 Nov 2012 07:07:04 -0500

I sweaaaaaar, fuck every fucking person in this fucking world

NEVER EVER AGAIN

Sun, 04 Nov 2012 07:04:04 -0500

This time I promise myself. You just made me feel like complete shit

I already know ill never be good enough for anyone or anything. Why do I even try?

Sun, 04 Nov 2012 06:44:37 -0500

I already know ill never be good enough for anyone or anything. Why do I even try?

yenno, you’re probably the only person that ruins my day. Thank you, thank you.

Sat, 03 Nov 2012 00:43:17 -0400

yenno, you’re probably the only person that ruins my day. Thank you, thank you.

LOL

Sat, 03 Nov 2012 00:41:58 -0400

Im soooo glad we’re dying soon. I fucking hate my life

After this simple fight,

Sun, 30 Sep 2012 03:37:35 -0400

Im really starting to question our relationship now.

Is this really what i want to be happening for the rest of my life? cause this forsure isn’t the first time, Not even the hundreth time.

Seriously?

Sun, 30 Sep 2012 03:27:58 -0400

Okay, so you tell me and my dad that you’ll be right back and so my whole family waits for you. Then youre there for about 30 min, so i call and ask when you’ll be here. You say about 20 min, so we wait more. Then that time goes by and i call, yet you ignore. I keep calling, and i get voicemails over and over. After an hour, you text me saying you were “talking to your cousin”. Really? so within that time you couldnt just answer one fucking text and say you cant make it so i dont get in trouble telling my dad to wait for your stupid self. Im not fucking stupid, you knew when 20 min was up, it was your choice to keep me waiting. You act as if this hasnt happened before, you always do this. And then you get mad at me for being pissed off? i fuckingg got in troublee because of you, you lied to me and ignored me. WHAT THE HELL DO YOU EXPECT? stop acting as if you dont do the same. Oh, and then you want to cuss back at me? ok. Thats right, because i should just be happy that you effed up. Oh, and im a brat for being mad about you lying, yenno what, Whatever. Its strange because usually if you cuss at me, id be sad, crying and just depressed. But this time, it doesnt even phase me. I haveyou no emotiongame towards it.. Im too use to it. And i know that if im so use to you cussing and lying to me, that must mean somethings not right between us.. maybe things have changed.

Same shit, different day.

Sun, 30 Sep 2012 03:15:14 -0400

This always happens. You lie to me about something, i have reason to be mad at you, and then you get mad at me for being upset when it was your fault in the beginning. Whatever, this is just the same shit i deal with all the time thanks to you.

FOSS VS MT.T !

Sat, 22 Sep 2012 03:41:45 -0400

I went to my first football game! I will never forget this day. We went to kims and reunited by making homemade pho and bubble tea. Then at the game, We beat mt.t ! FOSS FINALLY WON! We all lost our voices but it was so worth it. And even though i switched schools, i still feel as if im a falcon. I was worried that by leaving my school to attend lincoln, then i’d drift away from my friends. I didnt want new ones, i mean, theyve been their with me since middle school. I dont want new friends, i love the ones i have. But then, Everyone hugged me and said they missed me, it just made me feel like part of a family. I will always have pride for foss. No matter what others think, that is my school, my home away from home, were the people i love are at & nothing will ever change that :) Today was so amazing, i just wish it to wouldn’t end. Im going to do whatever it takes to go back to Foss.

Bad dreams

Mon, 10 Sep 2012 05:08:05 -0400

Okay, so i just lost woke up from the worst dream in a long ass time and i’m just seriously letting this get to me so yeah.. i’m pretty pissed. So, what had happened was it was my 17th birthday and me and derrick went to Oregon for a shopping spree and spent the night in a hotel. The day was so perfect until we went into Abercrombie when i saw this stupid ass slut that i hate. OMG i was like “no, lets leave” but then, derrick walks over to her, LETTING GO OF MY HAND, and hugs her. Then they start talking asking “oh howve you been? Havent seen you in a long time. Blah bblah blah” and yea -_- i just have stood there annd was like wtf just happened. So i was just thinking, yeenno ill just let this go for now and beat his ass when were home. But theeeeeen, she reaches over and whispers in his ear while giggling and shit. And i mean, if he talks to another girl then whatever, i get mad and shit. BUT, if theyre OBVIOUSLY FLIRTIING of course im gunna go crazy. I was just like HEEEELLL NOO, THIS GIRL DID NOT JUST DO THAT IN FRONT OF ME AND DERRICK DID NOT JUST LET THAT HAPPEN. So i was fuckin pissed. I walked out andd expected him to follow, but no. He stood there talking to this slut. So i left. AND THEEEN, when i was out, i realized “shit, he has the fucking carkeys.” So here i am, walking with my shopping bags, pissed off, in the rain, going home alone -_- so i got to the hotel and waited… and waited… and waited… and no call. Yenno that feeling when youre pissed off and you dont wanna call him but you wanna know what hes doing so you want him to call you cause hes the one tht fucked up? Yeah, thats what happened. But i gave in and called him then he was all like “ill be home later. Im with my friend” so i was like yellling at him and stuff. For some reason my dream didnt make sense, and i knew were he was. I went to that sluts apartment and found derrick drinking, in boxers, with her on his fuckin lap in a towel. And OMG, I WENT OFF. I stormed in there and beat him upside the head with a bat (dont know how i got it though) and when he knocked out. I punched her over and over,ripped out her hair and strapped her to a chair. Then i shaved half her head and eyebrows off, fucked up her face and broke her nose. Then i went on a fullout rampage on derrick. Doing the same to him but i took his debit and credit. I broke everything in her house, slashed the tires in their cars and left. Then i went to fuckin walmart… yeah, walmart and bought all the food their and gave it to a homeless shelter and then bought all the toys and gave it to an orphanage. So yea, at least im not 100% cruel. I put him 800,000 dollars in debt. Then i left to washington were i burned all his jordans and told his dad that derrick has a fetish for his stepmom, told his grandma that hes a child molester and his whole family that hes 800000 dollars in debt cause he gave money to a prostitute so they could elope.

But yeah, that was my dream. Im pissed off and tweeting about it, Even if it was just a dream. I’m probably also gunna be grumpy about it when i wake up for school in 2 hrs.

Ugh, fuck homewreckers. Cheating should be illegal.

Sorry

Sat, 08 Sep 2012 18:50:36 -0400

It will eventually lose its meaning when you overuse it.

WOW

Sat, 08 Sep 2012 15:25:11 -0400

You’re fucking stupid.
I honestly don’t even want to see you now.

Sometimes i wonder..

Sat, 08 Sep 2012 03:53:39 -0400

Do you ever wish you didn’t choose me?

I always feel ugly

Sat, 08 Sep 2012 03:53:15 -0400

And worthless

Jealousy

Sat, 08 Sep 2012 02:28:06 -0400

Even though i thought it was annoying sometimes, i kinda miss it. Now you never worry to look at my tumblr, facebook, twitter, or instagram to see who im following or talking to. You don’t even ask who some guy was that waved at me or check my phone to see who keeps texting me. I mean, yeah, i want you’re trust. But a little jealousy to show you’re scared of losing me wouldn’t hurt either …

Some girls are just so disgusting, like why do you even exist?

Fri, 07 Sep 2012 01:27:35 -0400

Some girls are just so disgusting, like why do you even exist?

Ugh

Fri, 07 Sep 2012 01:10:49 -0400

Not excited to see your face again

“JUUUUST KIIIIIDDING”